Breakfast Duty

Bay's back :)

been having comp and it's killing my knees... haven't been playing well lately. i really need to snap out of it and get my tennis on the right track. it's very frustrating. thank God for people like woan, darrell tan and C!

I think i'm like a mute when i train, stuck in my rut of silence. And i've got gloom plastered all over my face... that really sucks! Tomorrow's gonna be different. We've got matches on Mon, Weds and Fri next week! Hope i get to play. I guess sometimes we've just got to move on. I thought I did, but maybe my foot's been caught in the mud all along. It's the kind of feeling where you think you've made some progress, only to take a closer look at the earth you're running on and realize that it's the same spot. I don't know how many of you feel this way. or why you would. But I just hope that if anyone reads this post, you won't go into freefall and stop trying.

I don't know how i'm going to mug for history test next week! Training everyday. Alright, take care everyone & God Bless! =)

you'll be gone for a week =(


come back quick and put a smile back on my face.

This photo is worth more half a million USD!!! This was the highlight of the trip, when 4 Mainstreamers and a GEPer plus the Sisterhood did a combined gig in the sands of the Philippines. Look at the gig shot! it's quite brilliant don't u think hahaha. Actually the photo could have been worth a million, but Yongjie and Chai Yi's decadent posing reduced its worth by half :( Ping Kan looks like he needs to pee hahahaha. eeks the guy in all-white is my favourite! The Sisterhood looks snazzy but they will never really beat 4 Mainstreamers and a GEPer because our songs are so amazing






last one for tonight- a tribute to guan yongjie. he was a source of madcap fun on the trip and we loved his polished vocals. and his spastic-kid image hahahahahaha

As promised, here's a series of shots from the sunny islands of the Philippines, with a running commentary! =D






All these lines just kept running through my head






This was on the boat to corregidor!we took it off paul's $200+ sunglasses at the upper deck. i sat with wan qianling on the ferry and we talked about lots of stuff. was really fun having a good friend there; people like you are hard to come by :) Below, a photoshoot for the PhillyPhotos mag

Charlene Tan I will really miss you when i leave on Saturday...

sometimes two people are the most similar when they are different because it lets them celebrate the oneness of their hearts. i think if the other half is too similar, dimensions of thought and interest will never shift. but the sea keeps changing its tides; it does not always reflect light in the same way and its waves do not quite produce the same sounds. yet it will always be the same sea. the possibilities are as endless as it is. without these differences the similarities won't be so beautiful. bayseacally, it's great to be different. =D

i know the turns
and they have felt me
i don’t know how to spell them
or if i am saying them in the right way
but we have crossed countlessly

what do you think of my worn face?

it tires like the tyres that bring me to you.
i work my mornings till seven o clock
i have worked them since a different time
and you know why i say this
my sentiments are two yellow lines sleeping
with old rubber they lie endless
others lied without an end

i cannot take five of you
it is a rule
it is also a rule that they should leave you alone
but that is my rule
glass for grass
is theirs

they are well-walled
and richer
and see me more when it is time for the groceries
or a newborn
or sealed winterwear
or (this is amusing) the two minute walk after lunch
from the bus-stop to home
because her feet are killing her
kind ones do not ask for change
or are they really yearning for it?
Some laugh at my diction
but at least i speak

they have lost their words because they are empty.

my glasses have the footprint of grime
my collar, the smell of evening sweat
morning coffee caught my shirt, then disappeared

as everything else did. when I wait
i bite my nails into shape
at least they will grow
yesterday only grows more distant
i am busy and i need to change my shift
and that angers you
but i am sorry, i cannot stop for you always
i cannot even stop for myself sometimes
once i was caught for being over ninety
if i were to live as long as that i would take those cameras to my coffin

i rest my head on the stains
of this window and touch the peeling wheel
when there is no one i whisper
a dying tune
i used to love
the late-night drive
until the road changed.

now i sit and stare at soft lights falling

i spoke to a young man
and he heard my musings.

“do not become a taxi driver.”

he laughed.

then what, uncle? A heartless man?

nothing
at all
only a pained
heart perhaps



Went to tai chong with Chai, Chew and Weibin yesterday, then ate Bah ku teh with Glenn, Cherry and Jerry. The pigeons were really fat! Man. surely there must be more to a bird's life than tottering around for food and looking like a shower ad girl for the avian world. flying must be tiring with all that weight. A PIGeon. Haha.

Today marks the 17th birthday of the World. It makes me feel that you are always around.







wish i had a better start for the promos; morning was mixed and my paper convoluted at parts. But His strength will carry me through.

we're different but never indifferent. that's the catch. =)

get well soon alright.
when you've got a fever it makes someone even more lovesick.

That's solid. There, you see how much I learned.
-- Vice President Dan Quayle when when visiting a welding class at a vocational school in Union, Missouri. He welded two scraps of metal together to demonstrate how much he had learned while in the National Guard. (reported in the NY Times, 10/25/88)



Dan Quayle had a trip planned to Beijing, but was worried because of the turmoil at that end. His security advisor however informed him that it was pretty safe for D.Q. as, "They are only harassing intellectuals".



Americans will soon observe the 20th anniversary of] Neil Armstrong and Buzz Lukens' walk on the moon.
-- Vice President Dan Quayle confusing the sexual assaulter/Congressman with Astronaut Buzz Aldrin, 7/15/89 Los Angeles Times (7/16/89)

...Buzz Lukens took that fateful step...
-- Vice President Dan Quayle continuing to confuse the sexual assaulter/Congressman with Astronaut Buzz Aldrin, 7/15/89 (reported in Esquire, 8/92)




The future will be a better tomorrow.
-- Vice President Dan Quayle

c****** t** j** ling
countless joy you bring
i'll never have a fling
only for you i'll sing


and when we're both greying
we'll hold on to our rings =)

2 missed calls
one for
me and the other
for me
too i
missed the call
and the caller

is the one in my heart.



i know we don't know what the future has in store.
but i've stored up so much of everything you've given
and that is the only affirmation i need.
i like
waiting
and
waiting
and staying
sitting with you.

waiting
staying sitting
with the sea.


the bay
with
the sea
=)

The duo provided the Heroes soundtrack, "Charlnon in D"

Name: Chan Mali Chan
Age: 7
Country of Origin: Malaysia
Special Ability: Flying (only works when not perspiring)
Quoteworthy: "I don't want to walkxxx. It's so hotx today. sighzzzz. i am sweating worxxzzx."


Chan Mali Chan grew up in Albania, where she was shipped to Malaysia on a sampan after the original cruiser was sunk by American aeroplanes. Because Chan Mali overused her flying abilities during the monsoon season, she cannot mature beyond 7 years of age. However, Chan Mali is still friendly and likes to fly to the moon to emo with Chang E.

Chan Mali goes by the alias "Audrey" in her workplace, NASA. Just recently, she saved the world from another arms race when she intercepted an Inter-Continental Ballistic Missile from China to America. Audrey Chan Mali is indeed a true hero.

just one charl





would bring the brightest smile.

in all the moistness
and pained words from
pained lips
you still
stand and
hold me
and tell me
i'm yours.

that's real beauty.




Past few days have been quite draining because of dochertea's essay; spent some time on SL too with Glenn and Hanny. The posters are coming along fine. Fell asleep on the couch last night! Like a couch baytato niahahaha



Our heroes will return really soon! The next hero will either be audrey or yong jie... who should be 'heroed' first???

Please go for IRIS!!!! Support Charlene alright! :)

you touch
the edge of a creased
collar
between lines on your palm
and hold the
hand that knows
your face
the curves of your ear
the lightness

from that
hand
eyes wet with
loss

eyes that see a creased collar meandered
by a drop
of quiet